Bullying- something I realised I've experienced, but haven’t spoken about on here. I wanted to create a post with hope that maybe it can help someone else or can be relatable. I hope that to those that can relate that this brings comfort that you are not alone.

Just because life is sometimes not so glamorous. It is adapted a little from a letter I wrote to myself. Couldn't post at the time because it was too recent, but it's here now with the hope that it might provide some comfort to someone who needs it.

So it hasn't gone to plan or recently things are feeling a little uphill. Here is a rewritten and readapted letter I wrote to myself when I was feeling just that - a little disappointed and deflated. I used it to help lift my spirit and hopefully, this will lift yours.

I think we have all been in a position where we have worried about the future. Worried about what is in store for us, or about not having things figured out. We cannot control the future. But, we can control the present.  Don't worry this is not going to be a list where I tell you do this and it'll be sorted out, you won't worry because that simply is not the case. There are things you can do to facilitate your near future, but there is no way of absolutely controlling what will happen. What I will say is that things have a way of working out and there are more paths and opportunities than it may seem at the moment in store.

I think most people will have dealt with this at some point and if not will probably have to in the future. This is actually a modified version of something I wrote to myself and for myself as a way to release and feel a little better about how I was feeling. Hope it helps someone. 

Your best is always good enough regardless of the result. If you are doubting this, you are probably stressing about the expectations you have to meet or are a little disappointed... I feel you, which is why I am here to remind you (and myself- I see you future me) that you are perfectly capable. If for whatever reason, (because you are human and we all go wrong sometimes) you do not manage to meet what you were aiming for at some point- it is OKAY. It does not mean you are less worthy or less capable.

"You are not a mess, you are a feeling person in a messy world".

Most of us want direction. And sometimes we want to have everything worked out,  but we can't because life is unpredictable.

I came up with this idea to hopefully bring some comfort and joy to someone. The idea is that I write a series of letters/ notes anonymously to help lift spirits and make people feel less alone. We aren't always as honest and open with more difficult and negative feelings, which can leave us feeling lonely - I wanted to create a space that was truthful to more negative feelings we can all sometimes experience, yet bought some hope. A place that could be a safe haven or a little pick me up for people when they need it (including me).

After researching on the internet to see if something like this existed, I found that there were no blogs which had a section of anonymous letters or notes,  or had written anonymous letters. However, I came across Letters left in London (https://lettersleftinlondon.tumblr.com) which is a blog that showcases someone's journey of leaving anonymous uplifting messages/letters in public spaces for strangers to find. Since that blog is older than mine, it is only right I mention it. It is a beautiful idea and blog so definitely go and check it out! These are a series of notes or letters, for anyone to read, but rather than being left in a public space outside, it is a section of my blog.

I hope that these put a smile on your face or bring comfort and encourage you to spread kindness and positivity into the world. But more than that, I hope it reminds you that you are never alone and that we can connect over feelings that as humans we all experience.

This section is starting off as letters or notes, but it might expand into an area of things that bring reassurance.

Have a beautiful day!

Notes to reader and self to always remember- letters to self